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am nostalgic. or at least, iwas for a bit. I spend the whole day, cleaning : ) Moved the computer into my room (hehehe) and redecorate my postcards, I really need to control my habit of taking every free postcard/brochure. But it’s pretty cool, i have a semi-large collection now.

Nostalgic because, who would have thought I’ll be here a few years ago. Little old me and brunei, that was always home. Always knew i had to leave someday but never would have thought here, having this life, doing photography, having a fantastic boyfriend. I don’t  have much to say anymore because my thoughts usually go into letter writing to J or, I just don’t worry as much, i don’t think too much about the whys, I’m content where I am.

Sometimes, I think the things i do is ridiculously stupid because it’s now, and things will always pass. The bad times, the times that makes you wanna give up everything you are, everything you do. It’s stupid because what’s the point of freaking out and being all upset about the now, when it be over. When you know that this would pass, and when it does, there’s always a brighter world out there, just waiting.

I have so much photography stuff to edit and all that but I’ve been all over the place lately. Been traveling way too much so I’m kinda glad i have these last 5 days to get everything done and hopefully ready for 2nd semester. Groups are all changed now, I’m in D with a few mates, which is good. Just a tad different.

I’m babysitting J’s younger sister tomorrow, for a favour for his parents. I’m kinda glad for the company, she’s really great to be around with. A tad nervous cos i haven’t really babysitted her on my own. I’ve always played with her and look after her when everyone is around but, never on my own. Hopefully it goes okay.
I’m kinda enjoying that my brother isn’t around. It’s a bit lonely but not too much because i have my dog here : ) and I have a clean house and a semi-clean room which makes me a bit more settled. I’m getting really sick though, I have a very very bad cold and cough, losing my voice too.
Anyway, i should sleep. Gnight x